Insanity

Is anyone reading along of the insanity of me? Last night I had a sure pay check come in from the electric company. It wasn't suppose to since I canceled it last month. I am sending the payments in through the post office not Internet. Then I saved a bank fee for overdraft by getting a check from my son to cover it. This all happened after midnight. Today I had to sort it out. Still not sorted out. How can a simple mistake seem so big to me? Is it the ADD thing. Am I off task? I even tried to stay up till four AM to call the bank eastern time to sort it out since office closed till then. I gave up about twenty minutes before four. Then sleep till almost seven. Did I think to pray? I did but not as I should. Its much more effective to kneel by the bed and pray. I would have felt the calm but I didn't do it.
I may want to believe everything is back to normal after treatment but its not. It will be nice to see the doctor about the anti depressants that won't bring on the weight. This is not acceptable or healthy. I did yo yo back on anti ds last night and one tonight. Actually a quarter of a pill. Its needed. I must accept reality.

I am counting my blessings. Even with all the troubles, I'm so blessed. When I turn my mind to those things, I feel peace.