Sunday

I got home late Sat. Didn't post. I had eggs for breakfast. I went to PV to see my cousin in law...ex cousin in law. We've been friends for almost thirty years. She is like a sister. I hung out at her home with her and her daughter. Also her daughters friend. We ate out then swam in her pool. Beautiful home under Camelback mountain. We caught up with lifes adventures. It was fantastic to see someone, talk to someone that knew me. Knows me deep. She was there at key points in my life. Like the time I almost died in surgery and had blood given to me. The tainted blood with hvc. She remembers when I became Mormon and how the Church saved me. Saved my children. She knew and loved my husband. She was there when he died. Honestly, I could write a mini series about this family. It would be fantastic, a dramatic series about two rival boarding schools. I have a difficult time telling anyone here in Mesa about my life. I have a lot of troubles no one knows about. Lots of sorrows. Serious ones, unexpressed ones. My friend feels the same.I have seen her through great trials.
My friends daughter is in a movie that is out now. She is amazing. Only eleven. She has also written a couple of childrens books. That is the nature of this family....they are strong willed and driven.
She was in a bind. Her tutor quit. I suggested I could be her tutor. I've been wanting to be a tutor for someone just like her. The only problem is the long drive. More difficult with gas being expensive. I'm just thankful to be needed and loved by someone that wants to help me out. Hopefully I can find another student in the area and do a couple of children each night I'm there.
Another friend that is assigned to help me with my needs stopped by. She showed me some jobs that were sent to her and asked which ones she can forward on to me. They were mostly unsuitable for me. She was unimpressed with my tutor offer pointing out it wouldn't pay all the bills. As if I couldn't figure that one out. I'm a math tutor. Maybe she thinks I'm a bad math tutor and can't add. I teared up and could not express my disappointment. My bubble burst.It took awhile to regain my composure.
It won't pay the bills but its a start. I can't survive with a extra dollar here or there. I need some pocket money. Helping a family member and them helping me is in the plan. I know it is. I know it will lead to other opportunities. And if it doesn't last it will be worth getting to know my friends daughter. This is family. She may be successful but she is vulnerable. I'm going enjoy getting to know her and helping her with her school work.