Slidding into a black hole

I had a terrible week. I' weak. All week, weak. All week long my legs and body hurt. I was emotional. Very tender hearted. My friend that is a massage therapist told me she knew I had fibromyalgia.She could tell within a few seconds. Not so fast. I looked up fibromyalgia and other things that mimic this. I found out hypothyroid is one. I haven't had my thyroid meds since August. I was on a low dose. I was taking Armour thyroid. The company stopped sending the meds to pharmacy's. I didn't want to take another kind. The compounded one was too expensive. That means back in August I stopped taking it cold turkey. So now I need to level out my thyroid. I called the compounding pharmacy. Armour is still on back orders. They have a better price for a 100 day supply. So I'll get that one.
I looked back on my blog from August. I was playing tennis and doing yard work. Much more then I can handle now. So glad I'm keeping a blog. I can look back on it. I'm sure they thyroid meds will help me. To a point. After I get to a better place, I need to see my doctor in Texas.
Today, I decided I need to thank God for everything. So I even thanked him for my illness. Afterwards I feel a weight off my shoulders. Its like I've given up this problem to him. I've come out of denial to say "I know I have a problem I can't fix by myself", "Help me now" This afternoon I discovered the thyroid issue. One step at a time. Fibromyalgia may still be an issuse. Maybe not. Only time will tell.
I am sorry to my blog readers not to have interesting things to say. it seems no progress. But there will be progress and good days ahead. Just check back. I hope one day to say....oh I met the greatest guy.....blah blah blah.