follow up

Maybe I can get one of those jobs washing cars that the illegals were busted for. Talked about this in the last post. I wonder how much it pays. If I was younger and pretty, I could get good tips. I'm back to looking for a 8-5 job. Its a task. Should be an adventure but not feeling so well. I'm not having pain. That is good. My osteoporosis regiment is working. Glad I didn't take the doctors drug. Didn't need it. But I'm taking the anti d. I changed to Wellbutrin. I hope to lose weight. I've never had weight issues so this is a problem. I can't afford clothes that fit. I have enough for now. And next month I'll be a size smaller. I'm determined. I will be smaller. One thing at a time. I'm now working on focus. I'm playing games to help my mind. I've read that this can actually change brain scans. Playing brain challenging games. Tutoring is also helping with focus and memory. I feel this job is helping my health. My memory is returning. I love having the clarity when I am engaging with my student on a subject. I must admit, it was difficult at the beginning. Now my confidence has increased.

Last time posted, I was very happy. Very up beat. I had just made an appointment with a new student. Afterwards the student turned out to be wonderful. We work well together. I can see him as a great executive someday. Certainly a college graduate. I tell my students, I'm not a tutor....I'm really your educational assistant. They like the way that sounds. We work hard. We talk about what needs to be done and go about doing it. In the two hours I'm there, we work hard and quickly. This school gives so much homework. Tuesday we only did Math. Two hours of math problems. I made sure he knew his work, we did enough to test his memory then we cheated with the calculator. That was toward the end. This school is now pushing itself to compete with other top college prep schools in the area. This job really helped me feel good about my future.
So much for that. Now I face the reality of life. Get a real job. Its tough. I'm not feeling up to the task. I feel I've come so far yet not far at all. How can that be possible? A bit depressed today about the whole situation.