Strange

Strange how this feels. Being broke, looking for work. In a way, it is great that I'm feeling good. I am only frustrated when a bill comes in. Right now I"m not too stressed. This won't last long. I have found out who my good good friends are. Its been a long time since I've been broke. That was in Texas and a different group of friends that rallied around me. I think its especially hard on me since I have no family. No mom, dad, siblings, aunts, uncles. I do have some cousins in other states. I also have a sister-in-law. I really have to just suck it up and be tough.
It would be nice to have someone to cry to. Someones arms to hold me. I'm a bit pass the age for wistful romantic notions.

Tender mercies

I will start by saying I was sore from tennis yesterday. I played against a ball machine. My friends daughter set it up for me in their court. I had a workout.Hard work day. Mostly cleaning the yard.
At two in the morning my son came home. I woke up and looked on my on-line bank account. I saw a auto check had come in. I knew I would get charged a fee since I had no money in my account. I asked my son for cash and he gave me what he could. Then I emailed a friend that was always awake at a early hour. I told her I needed help and call as soon as she read it. She called about four am. I told her I needed cash to take to the ATM machine. She was happy to help. I took it to the machine for a deposit. I looked on-line and I had a positive balance. Later in the morning I took my British currency to the bank. They deposited it. Then I was able to pay my friend almost all she let me borrow.
The last two nights have been very bad storms. My poor dog wouldn't stop barking at the noise till late. Today my pool cleaner was having trouble. The pool was so dirty. I cleaned and cleaned. I did more cleanup in the yard. I could see the pool was about to go green. I called a couple of friends looking for someone that cleaned their own pool. I needed shock and had no money to buy it. Finally got Rick Porter to come by with his son. He and his son fixed the cleaner. They will come again tomorrow to make sure all is good with the chemicals.
I'm so thankful for good friends. I didn't know I had them till I asked for help. Maybe its a good thing I needed help. It is showing me the goodness of my friends.

This is a poor me post

I'm so frustrated. I am broke and spend all my time switching money around. It was questionable if I could even get money for gas. I put in five dollars of gas this week. Its getting difficult. I'm looking for employment. I have been consuled by my Bishop not to sell my home (forced savings). I guess I can't be trusted to hang on to my cash. Its not because I'm a shopaholic but because I'm too generous when others ask for help. That is what has but me in this mess. My Bishop also mentioned how hard it is for singles since we don't have a spouse for a sanity check. Sometime he and his wife call to just check to see if they have things right. Sanity check....that makes sense. I could use a balance system like that.

My yard is big. Monsoons are here blowing wind each night, so I spend a couple of hours cleaning up the pine needles, the palm junk, and the oranges and grapefruit left over from last season that falls to the ground. I have 23 citrus trees. The pool is hard to clean since all this falls in it. Its so hot outside (115 degrees) so the pool needs lots of chemicals and care.
I bought some mini tootie roll pops and found a dollar for a bag laying around. I bet that I will not find any more change soon.
My son is living with me but he only helps when asked. I just want someone to notice and do it. Doesn't any one raise kids to make the world a better place around them. Oh I raised him. opps. He was frustrated doing yard work the other day. He wants the gardener back. Too bad. Its good to push around the lawn mower in 115 degree heat.

Also read somewhere that you can not reverse age. The article said you can slow it. I feel like I've reversed it. Maybe its because I had a serious illness for years. Also stopped drinking, smoking 23 years ago. I feel as good as I did when I was much younger. I was somewhat discouraged. I played tennis with a friend that hadn't played tennis for many years. She beat me even though I've been practicing each day. At least I felt like I was a good match for her. She was on her high school tennis team so many I didn't do so bad.

I do have faith I'll get a good job. That a miracle will happen. I'm so thankful for a good Bishop and counsulers that look after my welfare.

burns hurt

I went to play tennis this morning, then again in the afternoon. I forgot to change into my tennis shoes. I was already at the courts in my flip flops. They are about two inches high. I thought I might fall and break a ankle so I took them off and played bare foot for about ten minutes. I then realized my feet were buring. I put on my flip flops and played a while longer. As I went home my feet were burning so bad. ouch. I went home and swam, thinking that would cook them off. Still hurting. I put on silverden cream and bandages. This shows me that even someone my age can do stupid things. I don't know what I was thinking. I just thought it would really burn and I'd notice. But when you are running around the court, you don't know your feet are burning right away.So this time its a self inflicted problem.

Checking in

Still have not drank any soda. Have been playing tennis each day for thirty minutes. Not with a partner but a back board. It has improved my health. I can breath better. Had lots of problems with my lungs after treatment with interferon. Who would know exercise would cure it? I have better eye hand coordination, my thinking is clear. I can volley the ball for longer periods. This has made me very happy. I have also kept swimming each day for about thirty minutes.
I made some soup from the meat I cooked. I have eaten that as my main meal for the week. I have made horchata to drink. Also Jamacia to drink. Drinking lots of liquids...but not soda!!! Good for me. I never thought this day would happen.
Also have raised my armour thyroid to 30 mgs about two weeks ago. My body temperture is up to almost normal. One time it was normal 98.6. I'm feeling really good. I'm looking forward to writting in my blog that I've lost weight. Hope that will be soon. I'm not weighing myself but I'll know if my clothes get lose on me. This hasn't happened so far. I don't understand since I use to be a tiny thin woman till two years ago. I gained on purpose before starting my treatment. On treatment I didn't lose weight like I was suppose to.Thanks to some hints and tricks food continued to taste good to me. Now I'm not obese but I'm far from happily thin.

staying the course

No soda, only home made drinks. Horchata and jamacia. Played tennis three days in a row. Swam three days in a row. Doing yard work, catching up on reading scriptures. Doing family history on ancestry.com. Looking for jobs.My temperatures is rising up to a normal reading due to increase in my armour thyroid tablets. Hopefully my metabolism is rising and I'll start shedding pounds soon. I'm eating very little. Mostly some homemade soup I made with beef and vegetables.